| Im back in kansas, and thigns was good i have only been back for about 3 days and hes already giving me attitude for nothing. I thought me leaving would like i dont know realize that maybe we both need to stop acting like assholes but it didn't But hey what can u do about it?. Not a damn fucking thing. Just live with it. I guess im just tired. All i said was someone called and they was an asshole then he had to be mean to me but what ever im just gonna sit and shut up then maybe it will be okay. If i dont show emotion maybe we wont fight. That might work but who knows . Atleast i can try. I dont know dillons Annivesary is coming up so thats going to be hard the accident happend the 29th and he actually died on the 31st. To be honest he died on the 29th, the had him on life support until the 31st and then pulled the plug that afternoon. I dont know ima deal it on my own the best i can. Welp im getting off here i just needed to vent a lil bit thats all...... |
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| So i havent updated.. .so ... my Other brother Denton died.. Dillons cousin exactly 6 months after. Crazy, i dont think its hit me yet cuz im still acting normal kinda... im actaully kinda emotionless right now... anyways oh and my Boyfriend broke up with me lastnight =] awesome isnt it?....i unno what to talk about or do.. im texting tyler and kaci so.. i will ttyl. |
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| So like, i feel like my hearts been ripped outa my body once again, and broken into more pieces once again and this time theres no fixing it. I give up. I cant be the strong one anymore, im weak now... Im sorry for letting all of you down that leaned upon me and went to me for help but i cant do it anymore.. im to weak. i have found my breaking point.. and im breaking now.
I have lost control,
Of my mind body and soul.
Your no longer around,
And I have fallin' face first into the ground.
No more hugs,
No more smiles.
Yet I'm still in denial,
That your gone.
I don't think im strong enough to carry on.
I can't fake another laugh,
Nor another smile.
My soul is lost forever.
I have ran my last mile... |
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| Ello!
So im talkin to my bestestestest friend in the entire world Mr. Ace. And of course he's cracking me up hardcore as always. He makes me feel better when im down
So i havent talked to Kevin in two months now and its getting harder and harder on me everyday. I miss him alot and im trying hard to hold on but how do u hold on to something that doesnt even seem to be there anymore? Im sure he thinks about me just as much as i think about him but i unno.. I dont know what to do anymore its hard and confusing. Specially with the stuff thats already going on in my life. I just wish he could get ahold of me some way and tell me whats up.
Now that Dillons gone i have realized how short life really is and that u should always tell the people you love them just how much u care cuz u dont know if they will be gone tomarrow or not. I might be gone tomarrow...who know.. what would life be with out Marky? LOL. Prolly riots in the streets.. hardcore gangsta shit right there son! Cuz ima gangsta nigga like that you cant fuck with me SON YEEEEEEEEEEEA NIGGA!! WHAT?! WHAT?! Sorry, had a moment. Anyways... i unno.. ima gonna like.. go.. i unno.. love peace and chicken gizzards. |
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| Hey yall
whats up havent typed here in a long time..
So Damiens anniversary of his death is tomarrow, its gonna be hard i miss him but i think i will be okay...
I miss keinv alot i hope he gets to get on yahoo soon so i can talk to him. i got to talk to Ace so that made me happy i missed him to.. hes a great friend.. welll anyways i gotta go to my lil bros b-day party love u all
Kevin if some how u can.. u can call my cell.. the number is 580-307-4902 love you baby |
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